Post by Keane Wright on Feb 26, 2012 12:18:20 GMT -5
Pride was a powerful thing; it could make you and it could break you at the same time. Keane was a certain kind of individual, one whose pride was only going to get in her way in the long run. Not that she knew it though because for Keane, everything in life was a game and all the pieces on the board were those whose lives she had messed with along the way. She cared very little of what the pieces of her own game thought of her and simply did as she pleased without putting much thought into it. Keane was the only person that mattered in her life, her pride came only second to her blind ignorance that her life was perfect when the truth was that her life was far from it. The void in Keane was simply filled with material goods and a need to be smarter and wittier than her opponents.
But even that would not fill the void inside her. As much as it pained her to admit, she was not invincible and being immortal had its own share of setbacks. One of the biggest she had faced thus far was the fact that her own morality seemed to become more hazed as time progressed. Her judgement had become clouded with her own opinion and her need to prove herself as a person made it all the more difficult for her to really find her own slice of happiness. Keane now seemed to be at a stage where she was doing everything to try and rid those weak thoughts from her head; as far as she was concerned she was happy and had every right to be.
Work was one of the ways she managed to fill herself for the time being. By applying herself to her own work she knew that she could overcome those thoughts in her head and get something productive done at the same time. It seemed though that work was quickly becoming a factor to her own problems against her morality what with the recent changes which had taken place within Ark. Not for one second had she agreed to the takeover but she realised it was inevitable.
There was nothing she could do about it and that feeling of powerlessness had warped her mind more.
Usually she used liquor as a tool to help her forget but more and more she had seen it more as a crutch, that one thing that seemed to make everything okay and see her own mind and viewpoint in crystal clarity. Keane had her own set of problems like everyone else, possibly deeper problems than she could ever even hope to consider.
As of now she was spinning around in her chair, humming a little ditty to herself whilst her right hand clutched round a bottle of vodka, just about ready to rubberneck the thing down her throat if she needed too. She was far from drunk right now but seeing as how it was still 3 in the afternoon it was still a good place to be for her. Every now and again her eyes would peer towards the door wondering when Lucius would show his own head. She’d have been fooling herself if she didn’t admit he was handsome, but right now he was simply coming over for a drink… what happened after that would have to be down to fate.
But even that would not fill the void inside her. As much as it pained her to admit, she was not invincible and being immortal had its own share of setbacks. One of the biggest she had faced thus far was the fact that her own morality seemed to become more hazed as time progressed. Her judgement had become clouded with her own opinion and her need to prove herself as a person made it all the more difficult for her to really find her own slice of happiness. Keane now seemed to be at a stage where she was doing everything to try and rid those weak thoughts from her head; as far as she was concerned she was happy and had every right to be.
Work was one of the ways she managed to fill herself for the time being. By applying herself to her own work she knew that she could overcome those thoughts in her head and get something productive done at the same time. It seemed though that work was quickly becoming a factor to her own problems against her morality what with the recent changes which had taken place within Ark. Not for one second had she agreed to the takeover but she realised it was inevitable.
There was nothing she could do about it and that feeling of powerlessness had warped her mind more.
Usually she used liquor as a tool to help her forget but more and more she had seen it more as a crutch, that one thing that seemed to make everything okay and see her own mind and viewpoint in crystal clarity. Keane had her own set of problems like everyone else, possibly deeper problems than she could ever even hope to consider.
As of now she was spinning around in her chair, humming a little ditty to herself whilst her right hand clutched round a bottle of vodka, just about ready to rubberneck the thing down her throat if she needed too. She was far from drunk right now but seeing as how it was still 3 in the afternoon it was still a good place to be for her. Every now and again her eyes would peer towards the door wondering when Lucius would show his own head. She’d have been fooling herself if she didn’t admit he was handsome, but right now he was simply coming over for a drink… what happened after that would have to be down to fate.
[[Sorry it's so sucky and late XD]]